Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Baby NOT on Board

I am normally pretty good about not thinking about this topic but yesterday I found out that a woman in my similar situation is pregnant. I was so upset. Of course I am thrilled for her but I cannot help be sad for me.

I am 40 years old with female issues (cysts, PCOS, overweight) and my boyfriend does not have health insurance. We will eventually get married (he can get on my insurance then) but that will take some time and I am getting older. We did have his sperm tested to see if everything was ok and it was not. He will need to see a doctor to help his boys swim and work properly.  I have female issues so getting pregnant might be a problem for me even though the doctor seems to think I am ok.

I guess I could just say that it is not meant to be but I am still secretly hopeful. I am going to work on getting myself as healthy as possible. In the meantime, hopefully he will propose, we will get married and he will get on my insurance. Maybe in a year we can try but I cannot wait too much longer because technically I am probably too old and high risk now but I am not ready to totally give up on the idea. I want a little boy so bad. I cried most of yesterday evening and David was so good about comforting me. He loves me.

I think he wants us to be better off financially before we get married and move forward but I am trying to make him realize that that could take a long time and it is not necessary for us to be happy and married. Sigh.

3 comments:

  1. Boys will be boys, won't they? You're doing the right thing by focusing on improving everything you can. Every little effort will help the big picture, and whether or not there is a baby in your future, you will be a healthier and wealthier person. If you always wait for the money situation to be better, it will never happen. There's always room for improvement everywhere... If you need me to punch that into him, I'll be happy to oblige! tee hee! :)

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  2. Why wait? If you want to get pregnant, why not keep trying right now? Being married is not the be all and end all of starting a family.
    As you have said, you are not getting any younger. If it's meant to be, it will happen.. maybe with some medical help!
    I hope you get what you want chick.

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  3. Laurie is right, there is always room for improvement...I have found it's never really the right time...it can definately be the wrong time but there will always be bills and debt and school and a million other things standing in the way of your life...run with it...if you want it, make it happen.

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