I am normally pretty good about not thinking about this topic but yesterday I found out that a woman in my similar situation is pregnant. I was so upset. Of course I am thrilled for her but I cannot help be sad for me.
I am 40 years old with female issues (cysts, PCOS, overweight) and my boyfriend does not have health insurance. We will eventually get married (he can get on my insurance then) but that will take some time and I am getting older. We did have his sperm tested to see if everything was ok and it was not. He will need to see a doctor to help his boys swim and work properly. I have female issues so getting pregnant might be a problem for me even though the doctor seems to think I am ok.
I guess I could just say that it is not meant to be but I am still secretly hopeful. I am going to work on getting myself as healthy as possible. In the meantime, hopefully he will propose, we will get married and he will get on my insurance. Maybe in a year we can try but I cannot wait too much longer because technically I am probably too old and high risk now but I am not ready to totally give up on the idea. I want a little boy so bad. I cried most of yesterday evening and David was so good about comforting me. He loves me.
I think he wants us to be better off financially before we get married and move forward but I am trying to make him realize that that could take a long time and it is not necessary for us to be happy and married. Sigh.
Fresh starts and second chances.
2 months ago