Thursday, March 4, 2010

I AM WHO I AM !!!

Good morning! I cannot believe that I am doing this on a Thursday. My first blog! It is not the beginning of the week or month and the date makes no real sense to me. The numbers are not consecutive or add together to make anything memorable. So, why am I doing this you ask? I have no earthly idea!

Well, I am going to be 41 in 3 months and I have not done a lot with myself or my life up until this point. Don't get me wrong, I have had a good life with lots of loving family and friends so I have done and accomplished some things but not what I consider memorable things... I am still not married, no kids, no community service, not making a huge difference in people's lives really. I wanted so much more for myself but alas I AM WHO I AM... and I am ok with it so far.

I am an overweight white girl that teaches Junior High students who lives with her boyfriend, dog, and three cats in a two bedroom apartment on the third floor. We love reading, movies, music, and computer games. He has a PS2, PS3, XBox, PSP, Wii and I have a DS. He loves me no matter what size I am or whether or not I wear make-up or not. He is sooo outside the box for me; not my typical type AT ALL but I think he might be everything I never knew I always needed. He has grown on me over time and now I cannot imagine life without him. Sigh... (I do that a lot. Sigh that is.)

 

So, I had gastric by-pass surgery in February 2008 and I am still well over 200 pounds (270 to be exact). My lowest after surgery was 247 I believe which was 130 pounds lost but I was sick at the time. I did maintain 255 forever (well a long time) until recently. Yes, I know, I am going in the wrong direction. Sadly, I am not ok with it but not overly motivated to change anything in the immediate present. So be it!

Anyway, I am in a wedding this weekend for a friend and I know I will want cake so I will worry about my new desire to get healthy after that. David and I are planning to go to the gym on Monday (he has been sick) so he needed time to get better, which he has already. Woot! We always grocery shop on Sunday so that will be a good day to cook for the week or at least get what we need to be better eaters. Well, we are pretty good eaters already. I mostly cook and we already eliminated the white stuff and caffiene from our lives. My problem in a nutshell is portion control. I don't eat bad stuff just too much and too often throughout the day. I am becoming famous for 'grazing.' Tsk tsk...

Well, you have meet me now so I hope I keep up with this because I have decided to use this as BLOG THERAPY... Please comment, ask questions, or just read and shake your head. ;D

3 comments:

  1. *shakes head* just b/c you told us to! LOL
    maybe starting your blog on a Thursday vs. a Monday is just what you need. Starting on a Monday or the 1st of the month hasn't gotten you where you wanted, so again, think outside the box, woman! :)
    I'm very proud of you, and I will be there for you every step of the way.

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  2. I read.. I didn't shake my head! I am sure once you get your head around your issues you will start to lose weight again. You have to WANT TO more than anything else mate.

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  3. I am commenting...I am proud of you for blogging...I hope it proves useful to you...It has for me...

    Anyway...Thursdays are just as good as Mondays or any other day. The important thing and the thing that makes Thursday special, is that Thursday is the day you actually began your blog...and that warrants celebration in my book!

    I love you...Jil...or I guess Mrs. Jeager if you wanna get all feisty! :)

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